am i still suitable to be a great muslimah?

Assalamualaikum war. wab.
Good afternoon readers :))

the tempt is so cold today, cause rain never stop to fall down...
need a big hug from Allah ({})

oh my God..
i don't know what i'll say to You..
i have much sins, i can't be a great muslimah..
i've made stain... i can't resist my syahwat...
i feel that i'm useless people ....

remind me God...
i walked so far from Your way..

all my principle go away easily, it's all because of me..
my iman is too fragile ya Allah :'(

i did something which i know is haram. it made sin..
i set the law at defiance...




WHY DID YOU GIVE ME THIS FEELING YA ALLAH?
the feel which can make me walk so far from Your way....

why????????

'till syaitan came to me, and they r between my boyfriend and i when we were together...
and i did sin! i did sin ya Allah....

should i break my relationship? i'm more afraid with You ya Allah..
i'm afraid with Your azab....

do You still want to forgive me ya Allah?
am i still suitable to be a great muslimah?

can i still get my dream husband? the tenth surah in Al-qur'an :'))

can i still get my dream to be someone who make my parents proud of me?