Ku nodai cinta-Mu

Assalamualaikum War. Wab.
Selamat malam para pembaca yang selalu dirahmati Allah SWT...

Beberapa hari yang lalu saya mem-posting tentang rencana saya di tahun yang baru ini...
dimana saya akan fokus mengejar impian saya tanpa menulis artikel apapun hingga saya telah menjadi "orang", tapi maaf, saya mengingkari itu karena hari ini hati saya terpukul berat sedangkan otak saya terus memacu amarah hati saya.

Oke saya tau, anda pasti bingung apa yang saya maksud.
Jadi begini, di postingan sebelumnya, saya menulis bahwa akan meninggalkan semua yang berhubungan dengan hal-hal, hmm.. bisa dibaca sendiri posting sebelumnya:)

Tapi.......
Hari ini hal itu terulang kembali, malah lebih!
Padahal awalnya saya bertekad kuat untuk meninggalkan hal tersebut..
Sungguh kuatnya syaitan yang menyilaukan pandangan saya hingga nafsu mengelabuhi saya...

facing a real life

Assalamualaikum war. wab.

good morning readers:)

now we stand in the new year 2015!!! time to make the dream come true

bismillahirrohmanirrohim....

this year is the last time for me to wear the uniform. certainly i'll miss it, but life must go on..

and the time is about 3-4 months...

of course i'll prepare all of the preparation for facing examination and also many test of university. such a study hard, pray on time, doing a good thing, obey to Allah's rule, respect to my parents. and avoid wickedness. i don't want to fail again. i wanna make parents proud of me.

and now? is the right time!!!

i acknowledge that the reality not always happen as same as our dream, but i believe, Allah will fulfil a wish of servant-Nya which want to try and surrender to Allah.

according surah Al-Baqoroh 2:186

وَإِذَا سَأَلَكَ عِبَادِي عَنِّي فَإِنِّي قَرِيبٌ ۖ أُجِيبُ دَعْوَةَ الدَّاعِ إِذَا دَعَانِ ۖ فَلْيَسْتَجِيبُوا لِي وَلْيُؤْمِنُوا بِي لَعَلَّهُمْ يَرْشُدُونَ

“And when my servants ask you, (Oh Mohammad) concerning me, Indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon me. So let them respond to Me, [by obedience] and believe in Me that they might be rightly guided.”

as servant, we should hang on our will, wish just on Allah SWT. cause Allah is our Lord. 

There's no comparation, if u hang on your wish to human, definitely you'll get disappointed.

from now i'll seldom write post in this blog, cause i wanna concent to my real life, to make my parents crying cause they proud having me as their child :'))) amiiinnnnnn.....

and i'll be back someday when i'm being a people as my praying :')) amiiinnnn

wassalamualaikum war. wab.

Ternyata Dia Bukan Matahari

Assalamualaikum war. wab.
Good evening guys, now i'll write my love story again but in indonesian :)

barusan saja saya mem-posting tentang love story, dmn hati saya telah terambil oleh salah satu yang tdk saya sangka.. dan setelah saya menulis post tersebut?

kehidupan saya kembali seperti dulu.........

saya berusaha menyibukkan diri saya untuk menutup luka yang teramat mendasar ini..
anda pasti tau? hubungan saya telah BERAKHIR....

ketika saya telah mulai untuk memperjuangkan tentang cinta itu, dan tiba - tiba dia memutuskan begitu saja karena ketidak sengajaan saya...
ya saya bisa apa? saya hanya bisa menerimanya.. memperjuangkan lagi? harusnya. tapi saya tak cukup kuat untuk membalikkan nasi yang telah menjadi bubur..

seketika itu hidup saya berubah..
saya lebih diam, saya lebih berfikir sebelum mengatakan sesuatu...
dan saya juga mencoba menghilangkan apa yang sudah biasa :')

am i still suitable to be a great muslimah?

Assalamualaikum war. wab.
Good afternoon readers :))

the tempt is so cold today, cause rain never stop to fall down...
need a big hug from Allah ({})

oh my God..
i don't know what i'll say to You..
i have much sins, i can't be a great muslimah..
i've made stain... i can't resist my syahwat...
i feel that i'm useless people ....

remind me God...
i walked so far from Your way..

all my principle go away easily, it's all because of me..
my iman is too fragile ya Allah :'(

i did something which i know is haram. it made sin..
i set the law at defiance...

i don't know, he'll be my last or just a while

good morning....
long time no post.. and now i'll post about my love story.

now, my heart have taken by renaldi theodorus dani boro on october 23, 2014..
i didn't know why i could accept him,, he succeed to steal my heart..
after i was feeling numb with every man who entered my life. he brought the key to open my heart.
but he is so different. i never expect to get him...

we are met with the differentiate

i mean different religion..

i always pray to God, for giving me a good man to be my husband..
and the characteristic of my husband are not in him...

i have been undergoing almost 2 months with him..
when i want to break our relationship, he always holds out, and doesn't want to separate...
he always promises to struggle...
but i don't trust him yet... how struggle he is, how strong he is...

i believe, we won't together... because basically we r different..

i love my God, i love my religion...
i want to get sholeh husband who has same faith with me...

Sebuah Cerita Cinta

dingin malam telah tiba
merasuk tulang dada sosok pemuda
yang berlapis rindu bermahar setia
dalam kefanaan dunia

Dia tak salah untuk mencinta
waktu saja terlalu cepat bicara
keluh kesah menyapa dengan suka cita
tuk dapatkan arti cinta sesungguhnya

Wahai pemberi cinta.....
usaha, ikhtiar dilengkapi doa
kebahagiaan tiba di depan mata
kesedihan tak luput bersamanya

Little story

Hi readers, sorry cause i'm so lazy to post something new in my blog..

I have many activities, i'm so busy huhu...

okey, now i'm 17 y.o . i have been being adult hehe... I got driving license, (KTP), etc.. I've changed, all my life has changed.. Sometimes i'm so sad, but i must be grateful cause Allah still give me life...

and now, i miss about my story when i was child...

about 10 years ago....

everyday i played with my friend. i never study, but i always got first rank... 

I never overthinking... Everything was so happy......

I had many friend.. Every street, i had friend.. Oh God, I want to return again :((((

but impossible.. LIFE MUST GO ON!!!!!

i'm so confuse.. what will i write? 

perhaps, tonight i'll tell about condition in ramadhan or condition in palestine, or in my country, Indonesia...